Chelleax

First let me say a few words about the previous post. I originally posted it late friday(27th) night but took it down because I was embarrassed about the whole experience. I wrote it a few hours after the incident took place as a way to express and make sense of what just occurred. You all don't know handsome like I do and I am not making any excuses for his behavior, but that was completely out of character for him. Anywho, let me briefly tell you about the event that occurred afterward.

Like I said before, he forced me to listen to him talk after the incident. This consisted mostly of apologies and my "gift/curse" of pushing his buttons. After the talk we both went to sleep in different rooms and the issue was still faaaaar from being resolved.

The next day, while he was at work, I anxiously awaited his arrival home so that we could resolve this. I was ready to tell him that Aj and I would be moving out in January and discuss when he could see and keep Aj. Al day I waited and when he finally came home, guess what?? We didn't talk....AT ALL. Not a word was exchanged between us. I held off and decided to wait till AJ fell asleep. We still did not talk.

Now I dont know about you ladies but when I don't get to talk and resolve an issue, I go crazy. I can't hold it inside for too long. So i finally tried to get a conversation going and he STILL didn't want to talk. I was FED UP so I did something that I am not very proud of. I called granny[his]. He didn't want to talk to her so he was forced to talk to me. We talked.Finally.

yada yada yada.....we're cool now. I love him(uggh that's so cleche) and he loves me. Out of his mouth "I love AJ but even AJ couldn't make me stay with someone I don't like or love"...same here. We've leaned from this, as we do from most arguments.

OH, and guess what started all of this.....weed. While my sister's do, I don't. I can't stand it. He smokes occasionally and smoking was something that I wouldn't compromise. We had an agreement that when he finished his sack in the house, that would be it. So when, he smoked over thanksgiving with my sis and her S.O.; I was furious. Come to find out they smoked the last of his sack and he promised me he's done. I believe him because he's hasn't given me reason not to.

Sorry for the suer long post. Please feel free to leave questions or comments[i can take tough love too ladies].

Chelle

And put his hands on me earlier this evening. Am I over-reacting?
I mean, it's not like he balled up his fist and hit me....or even slapped me.

All he did was choke me...briefly

The kinda choke that you feel...the kind that leaves the front part of your neck a little sore, but the soreness wears off after 5 min or so.


I went to grab put in my contacts so i could leave, there he was with "where are you going? why you leaving" and after I state why, he denies it. Was he in denial? Did he really just not know that he put his hands around my throat??

A few minutes later he wanted to talk and stated that he was VERY sorry. Meanwhile I'm paking a quick overnight bag. He gets mad and blocks me from leaving our bedroom because he finally wants to talk. In my mind, its too late to talk. I tried to talk about it last night and today but he didn't want to. With him blocking the only exit, I had no choice but to listen to him talk....we talked.

What did I do you ask?? To provoke him
I told him(as he just lied down in the bed) that he's sleeping on the couch. He ignored me so I pulled a stupid move by unplugging his phone from the charger and tossing it to the ground.

I don't know... I think I'm over reacting. I'm tired, so I'm going to go to sleep and dream this night away. Goodnight.

GOTCHA!! Here's a monday throwback =D



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